but to improve us. I hope that is true. I am not sure the past year has done much to improve me, but maybe...
I don't think my giant step back from my family has done much to change my perspective. Nor has it improved my feelings towards them. So, I can only conclude that I am still missing something here. It isn't yet resolved. I still feel much animosity towards my mother, brother and sister. It has me feeling guilty and uncomfortable. Still, I want to just disappear from them. Move away, leave no forwarding address. If I could work it out, I would take a transfer out of the country. Work-wise I could make it happen, however it would mean leaving my family of choice and I am not willing to do that. Besides, part of the move would be running away and wherever you go, you take yourself with you. So, I'd still have the same set of issues. Also, I am about as far away from them as I can get and still be in the US and still I struggle. An ocean would not change that.
